BENDINELLI: Breaking up is hard to do
February 13, 2008
Dear Hillary,
These past few weeks must have been terrible for you. I feel awful that after all our history, I have been giving you the shaft. However, the truth is that I feel liberated. I finally feel like things are going my way. More importantly, I finally feel loved.
I will not feed you the standard, “It’s not you, it’s me.” It is you. As I look back to the 1990s, I do see a lot of good. But all of those things were because I put in the effort. I pushed the business professionals who started the technology boom.
I fostered the ambition in my people. You were on the sidelines most of the time. You were so focused on your little pet projects that you never really took the time to get to know me.
You tried to convince yourself that it was always for both of us, but deep down your ambitions were never really about me. It was always about you. I just can’t deal with that anymore.
I don’t know where I want to go from here. Barack makes me feel special. He makes me believe that there is a future and that I am the one who controls it. He doesn’t tell me that I need him. I may not have the same history as he does, but a fresh start could be exactly what I need.
Then again, John has always treated me well. He was even willing to die for me. He makes me feel safe. Sure, he is predictable and can be stubborn, but at least I know that I am protected. At least he is willing to put his own ambitions aside if he thinks it will help me.
Frankly, you’ve never made me happy. I know you are going to try to convince me otherwise, but I really do need to move on. You say that I will see even more of you than the last time you were at the White House, but I really think that is the problem.
The past few months have made me realize even more that we are not meant to be together.
I am sure that deep down in your heart you really do care, but there are just too many things that are blinding you.
So, I am just going to move on and wish you the best. Breaking up may be tough, but it’s the best thing for both of us.
Sincerely,
America
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Ryan Bendinelli is a senior political science major from Millington, N.J. He can be reached at [email protected].